About time I updated this shit; tons of things have been going on and off. And I shit you not; some things are relatively sensitive its not mention-able. But after these things, I realised I had a lot to learn, whether in regards to religion or to my interests. I am sick and tired of following the crowd, always pretending to be someone who is not even a slightest representative of myself.Of course, this just doesn't come out randomly from one of my especially emo crap occasions; its just that I've been noticing that the company that I used to hang out with has been getting lesser; its as though..well, I couldn't find a proper word to describe it, especially the choice of words will determine the outcome of whatever is gonna happen. And I start to think to myself: was it me who has strayed from them, or have they strayed from me instead? I'd prefer it on both sides, since it takes two hands to clap. If one happens, and the other reciprocates, then there's no choice about it and just move on. But then again, there's always this emptiness in me..and I'm not looking into it right now, since whatever's meant to be, it is going to be, nothing you do can change the fact. And sometimes meddling in it hastens the process instead of preventing it.
