Seems like an eternity since I last came here. Well, maybe it really had been that amount of time. I feel like I'm suffering from emotional breakdowns, or rather more like my mood swings are back. Bloody dangerous.
It was during this period of time whereby I would feel agitated the most, and I find everything else is pissing me off. Its pretty annoying, and I have no idea when this will stop. Nonetheless, I kinda hate one person in the class. Freaking annoying, trying to be the clown. I hated this type of people. Maybe I just lacked one thing that others have - a sense of humor. What the hell. So what if I don't have a sense of humor? Go ahead, hate me for all you want, my swings are surfacing right now as I am typing right now, and now I feel like thrashing things in the class - throw chairs, smashing things, hitting people - whatever it will be in venting my emotions out.
Yet, sometimes I feel things like this stop, then occur again. I never was well-liked because of my silence, and I mostly don't smile. Well, I can't be bothered anymore. Go ahead and dislike me all you want, damned it, say it out loud to me because I dislike you too. Think everybody likes you? Think again, deepshit. No one ever bothers about me, my friends avoid me, no one can be trusted, and no one listens to me. I can jolly well handle the workload my own rather than to depend on you guys to finish the job. Leave me as it is, yes, I'll never forget the "kindness" and "friendliness" that you have shown me.
